Decision making...

It's hard to make decisions. Especially if they involve human relationships, either work, friendship or love...

Today I moved into the office next door... I have more space and there's less people around, so I hope in the long term I can be more focused on my work.... I need peace of mind, I need to be selfish and think about me more often and not to worry so much about others' problems... they're theirs, not mine. I have enough problems/questions/projects already!

I am sorry if I hurt someone... I didn't mean to :|

But, at the end I'm happier and I think I made the right choice.

It's cold in Birmingham even if it's sunny...

Random

Another weekend... where I had planned to work and I didn't... aiiie

Another weekend of partying, drinking and dancing... and it feels so good!! even if sometimes becomes boring...

but this weekend there was a new activity! Body Attack! Jumping and running during one hour! wow perfect to forget everything else... my mind just went blank and I felt naturally happy :)

This is going to be a year to remember...I hope! I'm going to do many things for the first time and also go to places I've never been to... looking forward :)

2010

Hello everyone! Welcome to 2010!

yes, welcome, because it's me who's in charge ah ah ah Make your wishes!!

They say we should start the new year by analyzing the past year in depth... I didn't do that, I stayed on the surface... I believe I've done enough introspection throughout the year, no need to revive those memories again and again.

I haven't thought about my new year's resolutions but there's something I have decided about my future: I will not live in UK beyond my PhD, even if I have to go back to Portugal and clean toilets!

Until then, I'll do my best in science, friendship, love and health!

I'm not perfect but I am a perfectionist. Know yourself, accept yourself and you'll find the happiness you're looking for :)

... and remember, there are priorities, and the most important of all is to be and make others HAPPY!

Happy new year!!!

November

Isn't it curious?
Last year the month with more posts was November... and this year it looks like this pattern persists!
Is this a more stressful month? The time where the most important decisions are made? Is the moon in a special position guiding my body fluids by some strange gravitational forces?

Hum... can I write a paper about this and expand my theory to the universe and hence make it to the Nature? (ROTFL! rolling on the floor laughing...ah ah ah)

Blindness

Can it be... that sometimes you're so close to something great that you're completely blown away by its brightness?

Am I blind or just... stupid? A genius or an idiot? Independent or a follower?

Work hard, aim high...

Be ridiculous! Be imaginative! Be free, feel free, breath freely...

Where is the light?

I feel like I don't feel anything... just walking around trying to do my "job"... Job? what a joke... Do you ever get the feeling that people think just because you're doing a PhD you must be very intelligent, but deep inside you know you're not worth shit? yeah... so many hopes, so many dreams... where did they go? I'm not bright, I'm not even average...
Coming up with new ideas isn't easy... trying to explain what we can observe may seem easier than it actually is... seeing the big picture it's almost impossible... What's the point? To where are we heading? Do we have time to turn around? Time... that's a hell of a variable!! Damn it...
Let it go... let it go... Smile and keep walking! yeah right... I need to be anesthetized first to be able to just let go... to "simply" do my best... it's just not enough, maybe because I know I haven't been doing as much as required... or maybe there's just too much to be done and very little to conclude...

Surreal

Ok, the most stupid thing happened to me today... but I have to share it with the world out there! lol Although, I really hope my "daily" friends don't read this lol
Anyway, as usual I got out of the office, I went to the changing room in Munrrow's sport centre and I went to the ladies' toilet to do you know what... equipped with my mp3 player and a towel.
What happened next...was that... I flushed the water at the same time I was picking up my mp3 player... and it got flushed away!!! LOL
I just lost my mp3 player in the toilet...along with the water and my own pee!! LOLOL

So.. I left the "cubicle" and I went to the gym with only my headphones on...! lol
What a stupid ending for an exhausting day...
Pretty funny though!! lol ;)