21 Sept 2014

180º

Yeap.

For the past two years my life changed more than in 10 years or so.  Big life changes are often unexpected and ... positive!

Let's see... Finished a post-graduation on pharmaceutical medicine (after doing a PhD), married the love of my life, travelled to the other side of the world for three weeks - Hong Kong, Macau & Thailand - came back to start a dead-end 1-year Post-doc (no future perspective...), found out I was pregnant 1 month later, and when I was approaching my 7th month pregnancy I started a (dream) new job in a company 5 min drive from home...!

Fate or hard work? I don't believe in fate.... but I don't feel like I've worked that hard either... so, maybe it's just luck! :-)  And when luck strikes... you grab the opportunity and don't look back! :)

3 months and 23 days ago I was giving birth to my daughter (00h05). Natural birth, no analgesics, quick and almost pain-free. What a beautiful moment to see that small little baby with lots of hair on my chest.  She's been good to us. Crying and sleepless nights seem like a long time ago, and her smile is now, often, the best part of my day. I love you my little Leonor, and I love your father :)

Today I am a bigger person and maybe a little bit more selfish. I think of my family first. And by family I mean my husband and my daughter, they are my top priority now.
Not my mother, my father, my grandmother or grandfather, or my 'in-laws'.  And no, I will not apologise if I sound narcissist or insensitive or cold-blooded.  Our parents and grand parents tend to forget how they managed their own lives, how they put their family first in the past. How they emigrated to foreign countries and travelled careless, how they enjoyed their lives far from their own parents, how they lived happy lives with friends they called 'family'.  Now, they demand more and more of our little free time, and pretend to be victims of our little will to visit them... Shame on you!

I don't and I won't tolerate possessive and spoiled people under any circumstances. And I will certainly not compromise the well-being of my family (both physical and psychological) for endless complaints and self-centred conversations.

After taking a deep breath all I can think is... it's just two to four days a month... and a couple more over Christmas holidays...! Let's just ignore the stupid comments and enjoy the good moments and the relaxed conversations when they arise!

Anyway... Back to work next Tuesday! Back to my life, my routine... really excited to be back! And yes, I won't see my daughter 24/7 but that's ok, I need it, she needs it, her father needs it (he'll stay home with her for almost 2 months)!

All good, no need to pretend what's supposed to be 'socially acceptable'. I'm different, I'm happy, I make others happy, and that's all that matters :D


                           Keep breathing, keep smiling ;)