What a rush!

We all know that the correct way of doing things is allocating time for specific activities, planing ahead. Still, I find myself many times working under stressful conditions where suddenly everything starts to make sense! Though, at the same time these exciting findings are so messy that I can't speak about them in the correct order.
Tomorrow I have this important meeting...I will present and explain my PhD project to a specialized audience that is suppose to give me some feedback and practical advice!
One and a half month has passed and I still feel I know too little...This scarcely distributed information spread all over my brain without priority signals nor links between them. Yet, I see the light! I have these flashes claiming for more attention, but they're still short-lived!
When will I know everything about plasmids and their hosts and ways of transmission and regulation and dependence on host's physiological state and environmental interactions? When? When will I know the most important experimental observations by heart?
So many things to read... so many exciting observations to be rediscovered in my personal and exclusive way of perceiving the reality...
The ultimate question.. when will I recognize all the available models and understand how they work...when will I be able to implement all these exciting theoretical testing hypothesis...
And of course the results... Well, let's not think about them for now!!

What a rush!!!
Take a deep breath and slow down...

Reconciliation

Today I faced my fear of apologizing and recognizing my errors, my weaknesses...

I remember all the happy moments we shared but also all the fears and doubts we had about our life and our future...
I remember your warm smile and all the support you gave me when I felt useless and unloved...
I remember the laughs we used to share and the stories we used to invent just for fan...
I remember when we used to play cards in chemistry classes...
I remember of feeling proud of being friends with you...

Today, I felt it all again.
Today I'm a happier person than I was yesterday because you're back in my life :)

True friendships may be suspended in time but they'll always have a special place in your heart.

KFC

Kill the Flying Chicken

"Oh but chickens don't fly"
Why?
Because their brains are too small to imagine such thing. And everything starts with your imagination. If you can't imagine a situation and abstract your thoughts, then it will never come true because it didn't even exist in the first place.

Then why can't humans fly?
Oh, we can! We developed and optimized appropriate devices, such as airplanes or balloons, to efficiently transport a human being from one place to another by air! Of course, imagination can be a dangerous thing...and some imaginative guys though that it would be fun and innovative to kill millions of people using military aircrafts equipped with detonable explosives and bombs directed to specific (human) targets.

In conclusion, chickens are not aware of their potential to fly, while humans' imagination has no limits and thus their actions will always be unpredictable. (now try to model that)

Next time you see a flying chicken...Take action... You'll never know what her next step is going to be!

(by the way if you're reading this, you have a chicken brain ah ah ah hi hi hi)

Less than two weeks:)

12 days to be precise :)
To look into your eyes...to kiss your cheek.. the contours of your lips...
To breath into your neck... and tenderly breath out into you ear...
To feel your arms around my waist...and mine on your shoulders...
To share our mind and body...

Love

"Too much Love will kill You..."

That's why you're my only love... :)

"Seems like everybody is breaking up throwing their Love away
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with U
nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with U
You know how to appreciate me..."

The rest stays between us :*

The future

Today I dreamed about the future...
What sacrifices do I need to undertake in order to accomplish my dreams?
Are they real? Are they meaningful?
What happens to all the people I have met throughout my life?
What have they taught me? What have I learned? Where are you?...even if I know where you are does it mean I can still share my life with you?
I miss you all. Sometimes I miss you desperately!
Is it the time that changes our relationships or is it something else? Is it the lack of money to go and visit all the people that once in your life meant something to you?
How many friends can we have? Or.. how many can we maintain? And give attention...
What friends will I have in the future? Do I want them? Will they know me?...
Am I just being melancholic? Perhaps...
Or perhaps we got it all wrong!

Retrocession versus progression

This morning I arrived to the lab feeling confident that it would turn out to be a productive day! I don't know exactly when, but along the way (probably since the day started) something went wrong and I kept being stuck in small things... trivial for a pro!
Nevertheless, at the very end I figured out what was wrong... a couple of parenthesis!!!
Each day I'm more convinced that the PC is setting me up...but I'm gonna get you!! And when I do...YOU'RE GOING TO DO EXACTLY WHAT I TELL YOU TO DO! Stupid PC... Mac Mac Mac... ahhh sweet dreams :D

Feeling vulnerable and beat by the computer again, the only way out was to go for a half pint of cidra, peanuts, chips and "two fingers of conversation" :)

Late night

I've just finished to prepare myself for that big oral presentation tomorrow for the entire Centre for Systems Biology department... I'M TERRIFIED :| and confident at the same time... whatever! I'm not an expert, they gave me the PhD scholarship to become one, right?!

Expert! "...by the end of your time as a PhD student you should be the world's foremost expert on your specialized topic..." Great, so I have nothing to fear about my future job, everyone can use an expert for something!

Delusions...just another day :)

Great night

What a great evening!
Electric - the cinema: cosy and beautifully decorated, perfect screen, excellent sound and yet not modern or fancy, just antique but in perfect condition!

Great people, great place, great food, great beer, great pool game (snooker would be perfect though)... great rainy night!

Now... bed time... 'cause tomorrow is gonna be a long day...

The beginnig

"Verdana", the first choice I had to make to write this message. I guess it's a matter of taste... :)

Fireworks in a dark cold night.. watching King Kong o itv2, what else could I wish for? Oh yeah... I could use some chestnuts.. toasty and salty... slowly crushing in my mouth... hummmm...
Sweet Portuguese November, so far away...

Guess what? I had to finish my milk chocolate digestive cookies...grrrrr