November

Isn't it curious?
Last year the month with more posts was November... and this year it looks like this pattern persists!
Is this a more stressful month? The time where the most important decisions are made? Is the moon in a special position guiding my body fluids by some strange gravitational forces?

Hum... can I write a paper about this and expand my theory to the universe and hence make it to the Nature? (ROTFL! rolling on the floor laughing...ah ah ah)

Blindness

Can it be... that sometimes you're so close to something great that you're completely blown away by its brightness?

Am I blind or just... stupid? A genius or an idiot? Independent or a follower?

Work hard, aim high...

Be ridiculous! Be imaginative! Be free, feel free, breath freely...

Where is the light?

I feel like I don't feel anything... just walking around trying to do my "job"... Job? what a joke... Do you ever get the feeling that people think just because you're doing a PhD you must be very intelligent, but deep inside you know you're not worth shit? yeah... so many hopes, so many dreams... where did they go? I'm not bright, I'm not even average...
Coming up with new ideas isn't easy... trying to explain what we can observe may seem easier than it actually is... seeing the big picture it's almost impossible... What's the point? To where are we heading? Do we have time to turn around? Time... that's a hell of a variable!! Damn it...
Let it go... let it go... Smile and keep walking! yeah right... I need to be anesthetized first to be able to just let go... to "simply" do my best... it's just not enough, maybe because I know I haven't been doing as much as required... or maybe there's just too much to be done and very little to conclude...