I feel like I don't feel anything... just walking around trying to do my "job"... Job? what a joke... Do you ever get the feeling that people think just because you're doing a PhD you must be very intelligent, but deep inside you know you're not worth shit? yeah... so many hopes, so many dreams... where did they go? I'm not bright, I'm not even average...
Coming up with new ideas isn't easy... trying to explain what we can observe may seem easier than it actually is... seeing the big picture it's almost impossible... What's the point? To where are we heading? Do we have time to turn around? Time... that's a hell of a variable!! Damn it...
Let it go... let it go... Smile and keep walking! yeah right... I need to be anesthetized first to be able to just let go... to "simply" do my best... it's just not enough, maybe because I know I haven't been doing as much as required... or maybe there's just too much to be done and very little to conclude...
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i really really underestand you.... feeling exactly the same so many times..... for such a long time now......
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